Couldn´t it be like yesterday?
Och one, until yesterday, I still thought I get it all out very well so overcome at Christmas and his birthday alone. Since yesterday night, 12 UIhr ds looks very different. Got it at 12 short course, called and congratulated and that was not good. The night I did not sleep and have terrible depression. Did I have never missed as it has. And then you also have the holidays to all, where everyone in my family who has not just me. Who is watching the likes of when one's friend alone at the ass of the world sits and can not be there? Although
attempt to persuade grade my best friend to come along, but who seems understandably not as much appetite for the birthday of my nephew to have. Is not even his family and he also has to do anything on the bike. 'm Thinking if I am not ride. If I see everything so because I can guarantee nothing, and I do not feel like my family all day vorzuheulen what. Dunno if I can pull myself together today. And now my brother since I was last year Weihnachhten not live happily. Whenever was there, I have cried a bad day and happened to have.
I just find so depressing that we have been together 2.5 years and I have not even managed to have on his birthday as his vice versa does not. What's that for a relationship, not even if it works? Doubt, just everything about. I'm terribly bad ne girlfriend. I would at least be able to fly down, the least would have been. But no, 150 € so I was too expensive. Great, now it's too late. Whiteness is not whether all is right with him at all. Since we're together is not even what went well. Everything was always wrong. Maybe n is the sign that it will not be easy or so. Actually, I'm not the type who believes in destiny and stuff, but slowly comes to me all this does not correct. It may not be true that one has only 2.5 years continuous Peck. Every dog has his day, why do we not? That can not be. Maybe I should pull einfch NEN final stroke, particularly useful to me is no longer that. They always said that it will at some point better, but when at some point? I do not want to wait all my life that I'm even happy with it. This is not the sense of a relationship. I just want that the whole thing has a chance of a good future, on that account I've been through this so long, but it seems as it would not. So why wait another 2 years and depression slide? Will not let me make my life thus broken. I myself so so much worse that I have given up much for him and has indeed brought back nothing. How much should I give up yet? I see already how I will fly my training course just to be there. And I think that can not be. So much I want the best will not risk it.
I do not know what is right, I need to get small at first NEN clear head and calm myself.
So, Merry Christmas hope it is better for you than me.
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