Long, long time....
Ya, it also produces verschlägt me again here.
Why? Well, at some point you're just at the point where you simply can not stand longer swallow everything down and keep it for themselves. There are a few things about I want to talk to at the moment with no ... probably because I admit I do not even like himself.
But from the beginning: is
After my mother moved out a year ago from one second to another, and so everything went haywire. After many rumors, they would have long since a new one, which they denied, but always know that I was allowed then a few months to learn. And I hold a lot from him not. Unfortunately, he does it anyway as if he was my new father. First, because I actually have a father who has suffered in the last year so much that even I could hardly stand it and for Sun so we ripped the ass, to ensure that we come here for two fairly clear and secondly, I'm only 21 years old do not really need that a guy cares about me, who are sprung loose a porno could. And now, just a year after she is gone, she moves in with him. -.- Of course, that you do eventually so if one feels like 16 and still young and totally crazy. : P
Joa was a tough year for me and my father, but I was already clear.
And then there's this on-off affair that I run for 2 years and pulls me down much more. I had to admit that I am not suitable for minor affairs. At some point, but the heart was here .... unfortunately. And instead of that I just break off all contact with him and his girlfriend, let alone, let me again I'll add a. Whenever I'm almost over it was, of course, has to report to. A super night and then again a few months nothing.
Until about two months. Since we were in contact almost every day, he was with me, etc. And I slipped deeper and deeper. The problem is, he gives one the feeling not to be only an affair ... the way he sees one, a touches, talks to me and what he says ... This is all so familiar caustic, the thought that he then returned to his girlfriend back and do the same in her always comes when he goes. And that hurts really.
And then came a week ago, something unexpected slap in the face. He calls me in the morning, I lift off and expect a male voice. wanted Shit happens, it was his girlfriend who has found out that he is cheating on her with me and hear my point of view of things. Then she threatened me, apologized a few hours later with me and since it's all over. Who have taken time off now ne. And now that he gets panic that he loses, I'm obviously out. Certainly.
felt since I was really bad. I would never bring the deal, and frankly it does to me damn sorry for what I had never before considered. I feel totally guilty. Moreover, I feel really lonely since. And somehow I lack the last time.
Well, I play all day long, the phlegmatic, of all does not really matter, as indeed should be.
I feel so embarrassed for myself that I was so naive infatuation into something that actually did from the beginning was insignificant at. For him.
Since I'm always happy when I have survived a day without my great facade breaks. And I'm always sure that the next day is not as bad perhaps. From Tuesday, I've got a week off. I'm afraid. I will have too much time to think. I am glad to work when I can and am distracted. What's more, that I am the only one who has the holiday. All other work. So even more time to think.
But see me, maybe it's better tomorrow. :) Again
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